aphorism say that our parent have to be respected and obeyed. we are - the young - perhaps have some opinion which is unlike them at all. maybe we're opposing the oldest because of some reason. sometimes - we feel uncomfortable for their gripe or their bullshit which sometime make our life becoming - unpleasant. if you look at it - there are some of young people - becoming obedient, and some of them are becoming – the rebel. i put it to a question mark. why ? well, every person are not the same and all of us have different way. i cannot place my self on where side i am - as young people - in this time, right here, right now. maybe i am the inclusive of young people which is - have no founding

if there is a question – have i ever opposed my parent ? wow, clearly, yes i have. several times ? untold, maybe. why fight against them ? i have bunch of stupid reason which i needn't to write. for the first time, i have thought if - what told and taught by my parent are not really correct entirely. and what they command or wish not yet of course - can guarantee our life perfectly. but, at this moment - i never think of it again because – for what i have reached now – i prefer to set mind on more amount just to - giving in, hold on to it – do not run or searching escapee. above it all, i never worried thinking about how my boy would be someday, i'll give him total freedom to run his life – someday - when he’s old enough to understand. i'll raise him with my own way

probably right if - we as young people can fight for our rights. but to face our parent, surely there is - its boundary. we cannot do to mess continuously - desisting to betray our parent – it's true hurt. why i expressed like that ? lol. see – some people believe that opposing our parent is a big sin. and if we interminable oppose the parent, the infinite will give in kind penalization to us. during i conduct the opposition, my life even also have never walked smoothly. bullshit ? lol fuck my ass ! i have ever bullshitting it at first. but now i worn-out for bullshitting any kind of thing. i know little by little likely how to become the parent. how does it feel ? holy fuck ! lol. just beat your head with the giant hammer, don't desist to beat until you have anything to educate and enlarge your children wisely – until you love them truly from your heart, try to understand them, respect their dream

it's quiet easy to imagine how my life go on and on running in a circle of time on some confusing situation as if – when i have no fucking show / off from the contracts, i won't have the fucking money, so i cannot feed my son, as well as other family need. lol wtf ?! holy fuck mother god ! why write like this ? lol i think i'm just feeling happy that i've been behaving like a real nice human being this whole week, pluming on my early twenties. lol. i'm not only stir my soul just to have my music grow to make a living for my own family – but also trying to be a good parent. am i ? a good dad ? hold on – i'm not sure. what important to remember is i never think to - torture or maltreat my child as conscious as i do, i have never done that shit. what's good in the mean time - as long as i have more time to play with my son – not always leave him all the way with my lady. all these months walk at ease - i hope everything will be just calm like it further – to a better life with the health around us. wait a minute ! today - i feel the money scattering groan my fucking face – god damn it ! the next day, i'll have more gigs coming up. that means – i'm going to be very fucking busy here and there, then again - soon i'll have no leeway to nestle with my little boy or my lady – they'll be far away for a while. wtf ?! the world full of muzziness. go licking the fucking wall right away or jerk off around the street now ! shit !